It's hilarious really, a song that Dan once would play to me on his guitar has now become a motto for life because though I have allowed small things to be stressful; though life has thrown dampeners our way since losing Sophia my mindset is always, "but nothing else matters."
You see we may stress about finances, having more space, finding the perfect job, or travelling the world but the reality is these things all mean nothing to me because at the end of the day they really do not matter.
A memory embedded into my mind is the night we awaited to be hospitalised to give birth to Sophia. I had never cried more in my entire life and I'm sure Dan would say the same but I remember us going from pure heartbreak to pure anger at the world.
Anger for ever feeling stressed before over things that truly do not matter in life. To us in that moment Sophia's life was all that mattered and that life was gone in a blink of an eye. That is how quick life can change.
Life does get stressful though, it is life after all. Stress is unavoidable and inevitable at times but when I feel the impact stress can have on my life I now take a step back and I remind.. not just myself but others that at the end of the day nothing else matters!
We live and we die. Stressing over finances, living conditions, careers etc. it's just not worth it. Those things are not what life is about. Life is about making memories with your loved ones, it's about being grateful for those day to day moments where you catch yourself naturally smiling. It is about living for you and in my case it's about living life for me and for Sophia because she didn't have that chance.
I think between social media, small town mindsets and sadly the education system we lose ourselves along the way, we don't learn what truly brings us peace, or what true contentment and happiness is.
It's quite sad that it took losing my daughter to teach me that. But it is something I've sworn to Sophia that I will try to teach others. That when times get very stressful to learn that it's time to take a step back because stress will always pass, the same way happy moments, angry moments and every moment passes. At the end of the day these are all just moments, they don't truly matter but what does matter is finding the moments that you want to live for, the moments you want to feel grateful to have and the life you want to live because at the end of the day nothing else matters.
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